下一站，意义

万万没有想到，
我还有希望拿第一....
大家都说：不是欣颖，就是熳琳
听到的时候，真的有点吓倒，也有点开心
开心的是，上天给了我奇迹
伤心的是，伤害了某人

其实，
我真的有在乎你的啦，
有不然，有心事就不会跟你讲，
更不会跟你聊电话整30分钟啦
不是你跟她们一样，
一样重要的
真的，没骗你
作弄了你，对不起啦
你不会那么小气的吧？
最多请你去KFC吃啦

其实，
88.898
退步了不少，
第一次在我中学生涯中退步
不懂应该怎么办
我真的会继续退步吗？
老实跟人家说：“不要酱注重分数啦”
自己就是那个最注重的

分数、成绩
它让我更有信心
它让我更有希望
它让我更加出名
它让我更加骄傲
它让我更加串了
它让我有朋友了
它让朋友讨厌我
它让我压力更大
它让老师说我烦
它让我失去友谊
它让我变得孤单

也许，在大家印象中，
除了分数，还是分数。。。
是啦，我不像别人，
有样子，有风度，有家世，
会唱歌，会表演，会音乐
我只是个读书仔
什么都不会

连自己的感情问题都不能解决
在学业上，可能我占上风，
但
在感情上，我绝对是白痴

别人生气了，
我不懂得哄她
别人哭了，
我不懂得安慰

没有一件事
是我会的
是吧？我每次安慰人，
等于在“串”人，ZAT人
注定不能安慰到人，
也说服不到人

说真的，
最后一年了，
意义是什么？
SPM文凭？考试？
学会？学问？
还是友谊？爱情？
还在模糊着，
到现在，陪伴着我的
始终还是你
分数

下一站，考验

上一站的POST，真的给我柠檬是？？！！！

算了啦，大人不记小人过。都不知道为何，
开学回来一直都在打瞌睡。。。
应该假期结束的突然吧。。。
我会回来的，放心。。。

受到感情的创伤后，到现在
每晚睡觉前都会想起她拒绝我的那一幕。。
辛苦下，可是我相信ML说的，
时间能冲淡我对她的感情，
毕竟我只是一厢情愿。。。

是eh, 现在全班都在议论纷纷，
谁会是第一？谁是十大？
大家都投欣颖，熳琳，
没人投我,haiz...
据分析，前四名人选有：
熳琳，欣颖，准华，我。。
个人觉得，熳琳胜算最高。。
 haiz...以前拿89分的，
现在不懂沦落到什么地步。。
可是，我相信奇迹..
如果这次真的大爆冷门，
我能夺回第一，那就太好了。。
JESUS,BUDDHA,ALLAH,
Bless,保佑，merahmati
me,我，saya
leh..

这次是我的考验，
Aaron,你说的，
如果我拿回全级第一，
请我吃VICTORIA STATION。。

就这样吧，
对了，
感觉上，我真的越来越沉迷于BOOK-KEEP
原来ACCOUNTING那么好玩一下，
能取成就感，能去除压力，还能疗伤，麻醉自己。。。

欣颖，
不要在拿到第一前就走火入魔eh...

下一站，成绩揭晓

Next Station, Study Group

Ladies and Gentlemen,
As you know, we're getting nearer and nearer towards SPM
Therefore, shall we form a study group to face the bloody SPM?
I hope we can form the study group before next week...

We don't count on the number of member, just we hope
everyone can pay attention during the study...

主要活动是复习&讨论整个星期教的课程，或每科复习。。
留下来温习的时间我们将会再次讨论
有什么功课上的疑问、读书的疑问，可以在那时候再次发问。。
尽量不离题。。“适可而止”
希望那些每科的权威(example:欣颖)可以参与，
至少我们有疑问时，有人能够指导。。
可以的话，顺便比较下分数。。haha...

有兴趣的话，在这里留comment或者在班上跟我讲一下。。。
预知详情，请拨012-2987129查询.....

这个礼拜搞定吧，多多参与eh....last year jor....

eat lemon again...

下一站，开学

下一站，开学
Stesen berikutnya, Buka Sekolah...
Next station, open school

This is the worst holiday i ever enjoy before...

summary for my this holiday.

Holiday Start (Permulaan)
The first two days, I tried to finish all of my homework except the BRAVO and ENGLISH
STORYBOOK REPORT...everything was going as usual... Finally, i have done it!!!

Enjoying (Perkembangan)
Pada tempoh ini, saya berasa amat gembira. Hal ini dikatakan demikian kerana saya dapat
mengisi masa lapang saya dengan membuat perkara yang merupakan kegemaran saya.
Antara aktiviti tersebut ialah melayari internet, menonton wayang dan rancangan televisyen.
Tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa saya telah mula menyukai CRAYON SHIN CHAN dan
DETECTIVE CONAN.

Perumitan

Quarrelling with WL (Konflik)
这应该是我预料之外的事，也是一个转折点。生日天生气我，一切事情只因为
我的胡思乱想，乱说话。吵架了，放弃了，生气了，拒绝了，是这一次的结论。
所有的解释都应该无意义了。也许是吧，感动不代表有感觉，勉强是没有幸福的。

TAYLOR's (Saspens)
Monday and Tuesday, i went to school for tuisyen with Jun Hua, Hau Yi, Tee You, Xin Ying.
Bank Reconcilation, Work SHeet, Cash Budget, every topic we heard, we asked, we learnt.
Thanks for the teacher for teaching us with patience. 90/100, 88/100, 196/200... is not enough,
I hope this time I can break the CHONG HWA's record, get the first prize.

Jun Hua's staying (Kejutan)
3days2nights, so suddenly leh? but it's true. Due the boring life in hostel, Jun Hua the Great
came to stay at my house. My house very small xia, don't mind hor? Jogging together, watching
movie together, and talking together, sometimes that will be better if somebody willing to hear your
suffering, and your secrets.

Midvalley Gathering (Klimaks)

其实，这次的聚会还好啦，不是很好也不是很差。由于主办人是某人，所以
似乎全班的男生都到齐了。可是，莫嘉嘉大小姐，一个人搭的士过来，很危险的，
尤其是你的样子。下次不要再这样了。大家这次的出席率还不错，只是不满某些人
临时放飞机，班上有些还很被动(虽然我没有资格讲你们)。保龄球，我喜欢(虽然我不是
最高分的)。雁怡，教我怎样转球啦。KARATE KID，140分钟的戏，不错看。餐厅的选择，
有点贵了，可是大家也蛮喜欢啦。 她来了我不知道，她回了我不知道，无缘。拍了很多照片，虽然大家都好像不怎么享受。难得的是，这次有进步，感触很多。更加认识雁怡、可嘉
她们了。下一站，动物园。

Holiday End (Peleraian)
Selepas Percutian, Pertemuan, dan aktivit tersebut, sudah tiba masanya untuk saya bersiap sedia untuk
menyiapkan kerja rumah saya. Alamak, saya belum baca buku cerita Inggeris!!Minta diri dulu, jumpa lagi.

102

没事了，想了一下，伤心一下，哭了一下，
应该没事了，值得开心的是。。。
答案不是在考试前夕给的。

虽然真的很想找个时间冷静下来。。。
可是伤心没有用，把它忘记掉才是最好的。。
至少，我知道我有努力过，尽力过。。。

嘉嘉，
thanks for helping me a lot...
Maybe i'm still childish...
Don't worry, i'm ok...

美玲，
Sorry leh ,but everything end up already...
We're still friends, right?
Maybe last time she always duwan give me ans
juz because she duwan to hurt me...

是eh, 没有时间了，
SPM，TAYLOR’S，SUNWAY，朱子家训，翻身战
我还有很多事情要做，没有时间伤心了。。。
一天内，收到两个坏消息：感情失败，第一失守。。
虽然真的难过，可是不至于做傻事。。。
现在挽回，应该还能拿回第一吧？

YW,PA,JX,YY
上次应该听你们的话，不是想放弃，而是要放弃。。
Sorry eh....

Rejected

few days of quarreling, ignoring, apologizing...

Finally, she replied me...
Ya eh... the incident destroyed her good reputation,
maybe she still very angry now...
But i think we still can be friend...

Ya eh... Sometimes the problem should be solved
as soon as possible...
Finally, i bravely asked her about her feeling to me...
Hmm... you guys guessed it out...
as the title written, the answer is "no"....
Suddenly, i feel stunned but i tried to accept it...
Everything, ends up...Thx leh...
You've answered me le...
Although the answer is quite killing my heart,
but i think it's better for us...

Sorry leh... disturbing for more than half year...
like this bah...
I'm ok d, no need you to worry...
Haha...
My 101st post....

Way to continue my study journey...

100

this is my 100th post...
But from here, i want to say sorry to someone,
a person named Lee Wan Ling...

Maybe I've done something bad in the last post...
Maybe i should comfirm it before i wrote the post...
Sorry Girl, I've hurt you in your birthday....
Maybe you won't forgive me anymore,
But i hope i can give you a birthday present via my blog...

hope you will like it

My Memory...

KLCC Small Trip
-Organised by: Loke Man Ling...

9girls 5 boys...
An Unforgetable memory, first time hanged out with Man Ling
the DaiB Weilun Admirer.. it was nice and thx for your organise...
But i have a word for you, don't be too 8...lol

Before we went to the PetroScience in 12.30pm, we went for a walk at the outdoor
KLCC... Lot of foreigners, and lot of "kid" game...playground...that come out
these pictures...

 DaiB??? haha... feel like i'm back to "kid" age...

Hmm... Feel fun and exciting during the trip in PetroScience...
It's awesome, i liked the place... but not so much...
as Yingz said: the place is so fun, but just for once...
But what i want to praise is... what had HENG TAT done ...
Playing inside with two girls... WAH...
Feel Satisfied hor???

Then, we went for belated lunch at SUSHI KING...
Omg...Seem i ate SUSHI many times already...
Of course, SALMON and UNAGI are my favourite...
Love them...
Then arh? Went for shopping a while lo...
Can i describe Yingz and Lingz as two little princesses?
they so like shopping ...ESPRIT.. NOSE... haiz
Finally, we found Heng Tat,
makan-ing with the two girls....
zzz... he's expert...

Gathered for a while, we had to leave... because of the time...

A simple msg...

But i know so much... and realise so much...
I'm the top spender.... eating the most expensive, buy the most expensive...
Jxin: 你看你自己，追她追到变成现在什么样子？成绩退步酱多。。
Maybe you're right, from  the first time i  告白, i get the "rejected" answer...
I should give up... That time, i tot i still have chance or maybe i believe that i can find
miracle... chasing and chasing... Result dropping and dropping...
Maybe i tot it's worth...I tot i won't regret...
Last time i asked her: How many Full Marks you want me to get?
She told me: 6 gua...
Maybe that time, i should found that she gave me the indirect "rejected" answer...
How come i cant get the ans? Haha... reali stupid jor... TIs time reali no no.1 le...
Guys, i think you have seen her new picture in her FB, right?
Nice and sexy, right?
hmm... really.... Maybe she's suitable for the leng zai only...
Me arh? haha... tak tau...
Give up this thing, i don't know...


Happy mood... not moody.... Announce...

Haha...

haha...
突然间，觉得自己很傻。。。
傻到不能再傻。。。
自己说要团结班上，
结果原来最不团结的是自己。。
说要公私分明，
结果ROJAK的，也是我。。。
叫人不要在意分数、成绩，
结果最在意的还是我。。。
叫人不要放弃追求自己喜欢的，
结果一直放弃的还是我。。
说要带人去疗伤，
结果疗伤疗不成，伤得更严重。。
说要帮人家保守秘密，
暴最多的还是自己。。。
答应过人家不要再让人家生气，
结果还是做不到。。。
这一切，
原来我真的很没用，很笨，
可能想同情我的，有很多。。
可是我讨厌的，
就是你们的同情，你们的可怜。。
凡事还是要靠自己。。。
只想对得起自己。。。

HAUYI，SONGSENG，XICHEN，HENG TAT
是eh....
喜欢一个人=要她幸福、快乐
不是要得到她。。。
做一个守护她，保护她，让她快乐，爱她的
朋友
总好过做一个对她虎视眈眈的野狼
SONG SENG,
yesterday you asked me " you continue or not depend on yourself"
"friends give you their opinions, but you have to make the decision yourself"
"will you continue?"
我会说：“i will keep it as my unsolved question...forever"
一个决定，一个选择，
需要在心平气和的情况下的，才是你最正确的决定。。。

Jxin,
thanks for  telling me the truth...
although i can't get 6 Full Marks as she wants,
but one day, i will make a miracle, a new miracle...
聪明人是自己制造机会，创造时机
I will make my promise become true...
but without any payback...

Teacher hor...
so happy chatting with you...
its true, and the god treats me the best
he gave me two weeks to recover...
two weeks.. seem a lot...

Ok lar... i have finished talking bullshit jor...

SONG SENG, add oil.. you can d... LV BAG...
Hau Yi, obstacles lot xia, but be tougher...
Tze Yang, you still got chance SM3
Heng Tat, 适可而止
Xichen, you too... talk to her often la...
Weilun, YY or KM? choose one hor...
Chih Fung, 一妻一妾

God Bless me can recover ...
But actually,
teacher asked:
"why you boys all like your class girls d?"

Exchange

just now the post seem too angry le...
but i just want to say IF U WANT TO UNITE THE CLASS, PLEASE PUT THE HATE ASIDE
no gang plz...
like tis bah...
sorry for the post...

yesterday hanged out with song seng and hau yi...
all talked abt their girls...
Hauyi is so sad...seem he reali wanna give up
Song Seng is sad also... but maybe he will think back bah
Give up...Give up... Give up....
haiz...if so easy, i really did it jor...

found this thing: is it true?
双子座：
　　如果你喜欢上双子，只要你自身的条件不至于太差，那

么 让他答应并不是件难事；不过一但你成为了双子的另一半， 

你最需要考虑的则是如何让这段感情持久，这才是最难的。
拒绝指数：35%

也许

对不起，我相信，我知道
我不是一个好男生，
无法考好成绩，无法唱好一首歌
无法实现我的诺言，也无法保护你。。
无法成为你的好男友。。。

对不起，原来我永远不能做个完美的人。。
你的答案，我明白了。。。