现在

现在是1/4/2010，7pm...

Today is my doom day....

First, is the result....

Chinese: 85.5
Malays : 86
English  : 93
A.math :  98
M.math:  88
Science:  93
Sejarah:  88*
Book-K:93
Ekonomi:95

As I say, If my sejarah result drop...I will give up...
88, is my lowest mark in Chong Hwa...
I have tried very very very very hard...
I comfirm I tried harder, studied more than others....
And this is my results...
Even some people just read the day before exam...

I have learnt a lesson: If you have chosen not to get good result, you will not get it even how much you have sacrificed....

Marks...
It let me feel happy,
It let me feel proud,
It let me feel successful,
It let me feel disappointed,
It let me feel sad...

And it make me cry for it...
Maths, very easy subj....
but a word "CARELESS"
Have ruined my hope...

I believed that some of you saw me or man ling crying in the class...
The result, is very meaningful and important to us...
the name " TOP Form one"
I'm very tired for getting the name...
very tired... and stressful...

Don't know why...
Sejarah 4 bonus...
All bonus is the question i correct...

All my chance will depend on how many full marks i get...
God have given me the answer....
Number one isn't mine anymore...
She doesn't love me also...


I miss the moment...
The moment which i was very free...
no stress, no care, no worry about result...
Like the Primary 6....
A 12years old child who just keep playing games
Din care anything, din care any stress...



that moment,
have left me for 4years....
Now, I want to back to the moment...

I have studied hard for the exam...
She still win me...
more than 5subjects...
Suan le suan le... i duwan rebut any no.1 le...

I have been angry for long time...
Feel jealous...feel angry...
Haha.... WHy i need to do that?
She isn't mine... And i have no right to control
who she loves...
Actually, i said want to give up chasing her...
But i didn't give up also...
How come? Maybe i love her too much...
And i enjoy chasing her...Crazy?
One year... so fast can over d la... hope so...

For those who study in 5 A Zhong...
Don't give yourselves too much pressure...
Marks isn't so easy to get.. and it means nothing....
Don't destroy your life because of the marks....
I'm the bad example...
全级第一名，不是那么容易当得起的。。。
背后要付出的，绝对比你们现在的任何压力更大。。。

12am sleep, 1.30am wake up, study till 7am...
I wonder when i will die....
CANCER? SUDDEN DEATH?

GIVE UP！